I would like to explain what my life is like now that I have overcome my fetish. It is kind of hard to explain. Basically, I am aware that I would still be sexually aroused by diapers if I were to fantasize about them, wear them, or look at AB/DL content online. I am aware that the sexual quirk still exists in my psyche (although it is very possible that it is diminishing). 

 

Diapers were a part of my life for so long that I don't know if that quirk will every fully go away. Only time will tell. But resisting my diaper desires is not difficult anymore. It is not a daily struggle. I can push away thoughts before they even grab the tiniest hold on me. I can walk down an incontinence aisle at the store, recognize that the adult diapers would have been a major temptation to me before (or just ignore them), and keep going about my day. I don't go onto AB/DL websites anymore, for obvious reasons.

 

So, am I "cured" of my diaper fetish? No, in the sense that the quirk almost definitely still exists in me and is something I need to be cognizant of. But also, yes, in the sense that it no longer has any place in my life. It doesn't control me. And I am so much happier and more at peace because of that.

 

Is it possible to completely get rid of the fetish? I don't know the answer to that question. I think only time will tell. It might depend on how deep-seated it is, and that may depend on how long and how frequent someone has been entertaining the fetish in their life. What I do know is that my desire for diapers (and babyish things) have greatly lessened. They are so weak that it takes very little effort to avoid the infrequent temptation that does pop up. 

 

Moreover, I really enjoy the fact that I am able to look at diapers with objectivity now. I don't know about you, but during the many years of my journey I would go through phases. At times wearing diapers and acting like a baby would not seem that weird or troubling to me. I was able to justify my desires and actions. At other times, though, I would "snap out of it," if you will, and be like, "What am I doing? Why do I like this? Why would I want to be treated like a baby as part of my sex life and recreational activity?!?" Even after I felt that way, however, it would not take long (sometimes months, sometimes weeks) before my desires would get the better of me and I would start drifting back to the other way of thinking and begin accepting and justifying it all over again.

 

But since I gave up diapers and all things AB/DL I have not reverted back to the mindset that sees those things as normal or healthy. I credit that to maintaining complete abstinence, especially in my mind. I am able to now both remember what it was like and very much empathize with others who have the same feelings and also objectively view the desires for what they are.

 

So, that's where I am now. I am pretty certain the fetish still exists in my psyche, but I do not indulge it in any way. For that reason, the desires have grown significantly weaker, so much so that there is really no struggle anymore to avoid them. Will the temptation ever get stronger again? I am not sure. If I stay away from triggers and remain disciplined, particularly with my thoughts, I don't think they will.