Reflecting on My Mental Freedom

It has been a year and a half since I quit my diaper fetish forever. When I think about that it can seem like not very long, but at other times it feels like a lifetime ago that my mind was consumed with thoughts of AB/DL things. It occurred to me just the other day how much freer my mind is than it was before. It was constantly preoccupied with one of a few things: a general desire to be wearing a diaper when I wasn't; AB/DL fantasies; scheming about how to get more diapers or about what I would do the next time I had a chance to wear them. Diapers and AB/DL interests simply consumed so much of my mental energy.

Now that I look back on it and reflect on what my life is like now I am blown away by the freedom I've had to pursue other interests and hobbies. While I cannot definitively attribute this to getting rid of my fetish, I can say that I have had an uncommon urge to learn about new subjects and develop news skills. For example, I've taught myself how to juggle recently. I saw a Youtube video of someone doing and I wanted to learn, so I did.

I could give many other examples of the yearning I've had to learn recently. The point is, however, just what a big difference I feel in my own life. Do I still have minor temptations every once in a while? Sure, but they are so weak and my techniques for overcoming them are extremely reliable, so the temptation is never around long. Usually only for seconds. I wish I could accurately describe the change in my life and mental state from before, but I'm not sure I can.

The best I can do is using the same word I've been using: freedom. I'm free from the clutches of the fetish and, more importantly, am free for so many other things. As I've touched on in other places, I can tell my brain is rewired from its previously addicted state. It is a great feeling. I continue to pray that I can stay away from temptation and never go back to what I was doing before. I pray, and know, that you can do the same.